Monthly Archives: January 2014

Down 15.7lbs so far….

So Weight watchers and #wwsisterhood is helping me greatly! Great news today as I stepped on the scale.
Let’s hope this progress continues. Last week I had a cheeseburger and POUTINE as a treat from McDonald’s…the first junk food I’ve had since starting. Of course I counted and still had 1 point for the day left that I didn’t even use…not that I needed to. That POUTINE was incredible FYI. I do love Starbucks Chocolate Chip cookies as you know but I haven’t had one in ages. There are a lot of things I haven’t had. I drink more tea than lattes and I love me some lattes. Another thing, this week I didn’t use any of my 49 weeklies (extra points I can use for the week) so yay me!

This seems to get easier as the days go by but I know this battle all too well. There will be a day so dark that all I will want is to wrap myself in a Big Mac curl up with chocolate and put some cool ranch Doritos to shame. Oh the day will come and I hope I am strong enough to resist the urge. If not, it doesn’t necessarily mean I am a failure it means I need to pick myself up and refocus. Not eating my way back to 241lbs. #amen

Just wanted to check in and say Instagram is where the best community of inspiration is for me and I am so glad that I was able to find this community. I feel inspired and am reminded everyday as to why I want this and what is is worth to me.

Follow me on Instagram if you want the most up to date posts – there are a lot per week but hey, whatever works right?!?
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Blog soon,
PFF

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#wwsisterhood: Thank You!

Well, a full 7 days have passed since I restarted weight watchers also known as tracking every morsel of food that enters my mouth. I have weighed in and I am happy with the results.

Drumroll please…..down 7.6lbs!

Week one down and I am overwhelmed by the warm and welcoming weight watchers community on Instagram. It started my motivation and I find it helps me stay motivated. #weightwatchers & the #wwsisterhood is truly a group of people like me, who want to lose weight / feel great and are either working hard toward their goal or have reached their goal and now maintaining it. I get great ideas, tips on healthy eating and am inspired by this incredible network of women who genuinely seem to support each other. It is so refreshing and I can honestly say, it’s nice to have an outlet that I can truly be inspired by where women aren’t hating on each other who are in it together if you will. The before and after pics are jaw dropping because they are real women working hard. Tie that with the kick ass quotes that make me feel less alone in this and help realize that my goals are not only realistic but attainable. I am sure you will hear about this more along my journey.

Another thing that I find that is with Weight Watchers there is no food off limits. I can have anything I want but in moderation. I refuse to succumb to these feelings anymore because it is mind over matter and this mind has been tortured enough with self loathing. It’s exhausting. I put so much thought and feeling into how I relate to my body that it would be a nice break to not wake up and wish my weight and life away. I wish I could lose weight. Why can’t I do it? There is no reason I can’t. I have finally realized that no fat fairy is going to show up and take it away where I will awake and be a Victoria’s Secret runway model. I do want it bad enough (I’ve talked about it and written about it enough) I will do whatever it takes to make this happen. I’m tired of being on the sidelines of my life!

I deserve this and 2014 is my year!
Blog soon,
PFF

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It’s 2014 – Why Does This Blog Exist?

2014: Calling it out. I have fallen off the wagon more than I care to admit. I have the desire to make changes but have been too lazy to follow through.

I keep telling myself that I need the right motivation to get it right but you would think waking up loathing my body would be motivation enough. What about the countless people around me that are losing weight and looking great? If they can do it I certainly can. I tend to start things and get bored and give up. I have finally looked at enough before and after Weight Watchers / weight loss success stories where I don’t have to wonder if I can do this. I will do this. These people have lost 60, 80 and over 100 lbs and are doing fantastic and look amazing. I lost 29.5 lbs in 2012 and gained it all back. It would have been so much easier to lose the additional lbs from the 29.5 I had already but here I am, starting from scratch. I am the only one who can do this and I won’t stop until I do. I am 3 official and 6 non official days in and have lost 5lbs. This is positive and I feel good about this. I hope you aren’t sick of me and my failures and hope you want to read on.

I prefer look delish.
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Sidebar: POUTINE is good. So good in fact that my phone autocorrects it to all caps. Even now. My phone even knows how deep my love goes. Again, I prefer to look delish.

Why haven’t I just closed this blog? With apps like snapchat, Instagram, Twitter and so many different mediums to get a shorter message across – blogs are really way too much to read for the average person. If you have read this far I applaud you. Believe me, I have considered many times shutting it down. To be honest, the reason I haven’t and that I am writing now is because I really miss writing. There is something so therapeutic about it that it feels sometimes it was what I was born to do. I remember when I was a very young girl, before I knew how to write I would scribble lines as if I was writing endless words, page after page and I would do this, until I learned how to. Even now, many years later I get an incredible sensation when I open a brand new page and the feeling of joy I experience when my pen touches the blank page is unmatched. It is at this point that anything can happen and that possibilities are endless. Although this is not pen to paper, it is pretty damn close and I really want to prove to myself that I will succeed. I need accountability and this medium provides that for me.

Here I go again,
blog soon.
PFF

Ps: Find & follow me on Instagram: phattofittofab as a slightly different yet quicker, effective & a somewhat revealing approach to my journey.

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