Monthly Archives: July 2011

Perfection? I can do without.

I have started writing again and today (Monday) is the day I put my words and plan into action. 

Day 1, Series 3 – third times a charm, correct?  Focused on making 3rd time the success.  The Phat to Fit to Fabulous project has officially started and I feel fantastic about it!  I need to do this because I do not want to wake up at 40 (which is not so far away) and still be feeling unhappy about the way I look.  Who wants to live that way?  I don’t know about you, but I believe we as women tend to tear ourselves apart, comparing ourselves to everyone around us thinking that they have it so easy…”If only I had her flat stomach and perfect ass” or “I wish I had her job since she is so successful” or “if only I had perfect boobs like her, my life would be so fabulous!”.  I am sure the majority of us all do it in one small way or another as envy lives inside all of us.  We all have insecurities, which in a weird way is comforting that we aren’t alone.  If you are fortunate enough to not even have the thought cross your mind and feel that your life, body, face and mind are perfect in everyway and don’t require change…well bravo to you and I wouldn’t necessarily envy you as I would get bored with the lack of drama in your so called perfect life.  I am not seeking perfection on this journey, I am seeking health, happiness and a sense of overall contentment when I look at my reflection physically and metaphorically speaking. 

We as women are beautiful.  We wouldn’t have men chasing after us, begging for our attention if we weren’t.  What I know for sure is that we all have at least one thing that is completely unique and beautiful about each one of us, yet we tend to focus on the things we dislike or wish we could change.  What we need to change is that.  We need to find the one thing that we like most about ourselves and focus on that.  The rest will follow suit. I bet if you take a look at your closest girlfriends, you could find about 1 million things that you love about them – it is easy, right?  Clearly if they are your best girlfriends they are not only fabulous but your soulmates.  They see the best in you, even when you find it impossible….so if you can’t listen to yourself, listen to them.  They will tell you straight up that they wouldn’t have an ugly friend.  Trust that until you find it in yourself.  That’s what I do.

Blog Soon,

PFF

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Hot(mess) in the City.

I am hot.  Seriously.  I actually think I am melting.  Usually when I am this hot, it is after a jog / a run or substantial exercise.  Let’s be real, there was no exercise whatsoever today unless you count my quick dash from my air conditioned apartment to my air conditioned car or the slow as turtle pace from my air conditioned car to my air conditioned office to avoid sweating through my clothes before I started my day at the office.  I gave a new meaning to hot mess today when I walked to Starbucks for an iced skinny vanilla latte around 10am and my make up melted down my face on the way back. 

My temperature is through the roof….a lyric by Mariah Carey’s song Touch My Body that just seems so fitting  today except for the whole Touch My Body part, because right now, I don’t want anyone near me or my body.  Don’t touch me or my body.  Ever.  It is disgusting outside, completely unbearable.  I should mention that I am a fan of air conditioning on a constant / regular basis from end of April through to beginning of October.  My apartment is barely warm in the winter and my fabulous girlfriends can attest to this because they all complain how cold it is in my place allll the time.  Happy girls?  This is the temperature you like, right?  Similar to Miami heat you love so much, but 100 times hotter.  Did you know that it is hotter today in Toronto than in Florida?  How is that even possible?   Apparently we broke a bunch of weather records – whoop de doo! My thinking is that I can always layer on and wrap myself in a blanket and feel comfort in the crisp, cool air – but there is only so much I can take off and get no relief.  This weather is out of control and it needs to stop.  Not even my Hello Kitty ice packs are helping me.

I dont know about you, but I get extra cranky in the heat.  Extremely cranky.  Right now I am dying because my laptop is making me even hotter so this post will be ultra short which I am sure you can appreciate.  I am basically making a plea to the weather Gods to let this heatwave nightmare pass.  My saving grace is air conditioning but it just doesn’t feel cold enough.  I really think that it feels so close to how I feel after a workout that it should be considered a form of exercise…but somehow people would oppose this way of thinking.

My other prayer is that we don’t have a repeat of the 2003 blackout which would mean no saving grace, just ultra unbearable heat that will force me to book a flight to the Arctic.

What are you doing to keep cool?  Will endless pitchers of Sangria help me??? 

Blog soon (if I don’t melt away),

PFF

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Heart & Mirrors

Guess who’s back? Back again!  It has been a while friends.  If you don’t remember me, I have a Phat Ass.  No, not a Phat Ass Lexus or Phat Ass crib.  Simply, a Phat ASS.  Literally.  I would prefer a Fit Ass.  All kidding aside, I am a little embarrassed to say I haven’t got a hold on this in the time I haven’t written but I haven’t given up just yet.  I am here to tell you today that I am here to try again.  If this blog is new to you – thanks for stopping by!  In case you didn’t get from the title “Phat to Fit to Fabulous” what I am trying to accomplish here, here’s a recap in italics, so it’s even more fabulous and captures the essence of moi:

I have an issue with my weight.  Like I have way too much of it.  Sometimes I beat myself up about it but a lot of times I dream about the things I will do when the “too much of it” is gone in a humourous way.  For example,  explaining in one post how I will lay naked on a chaise draped in fur like Kate Winslet for a photo shoot – see? Humourous but it wont be when I do it one day now will it!  I have been known to record what I weigh each week in a Big Phat Weight Reveal on Monday, hold myself accountable  by sharing how much exercise I achieve, my gain/loss for the week and some other interesting facts along the way….like my passion for pigeons or my peanut butter intake. (which I should mention I think I am over Peanut Butter – who knew!?!?!).  Basically I am a fabulous woman who wants to reach the full potential of her fabulousness and share the journey with you.  

Pretty simple huh?  You would think so.  It is amazing the mind games I can play with myself.  This time? I can be honest with you and tell you that I am scared to fail again.  I have been here before and to be honest I am not even 100% convinced that I can do  it this time.  In my heart, I like to think that I can do anything I put my mind to (think Oprah).  It may seem that I am a sucker for punishment, but I think it is more of an innate need to prove to myself above anyone else that I am strong enough to succeed and rid myself of this burden.  People lose weight all the time.  There are people who struggle their entire lives with the ups and downs, the gains and losses and if you are one of these people, you know how hard it can be.  I want to send these pounds on a permanent vacation, plane and simple! *bad pun intended*

Where do I begin?   This is basically just a re-introduction.  This blog and my ultimate goal has been on my mind everyday, everytime I look in the mirror, everytime I get out of the shower, when I go out, when I go to sleep and when I wake up in the morning.  I carry it with me like a big nasty ass sack of rotten potatoes but bigger and smell like Flowerbomb, not nasty ass rotten potatoes.  It is a huge pain in my Phat Ass and I am aware that there is no Phat Fairy that is going to wave their magic skinny wand and remove it no matter how friggin hard I pray.  Instead, I have a lot  hard work ahead of me.  Again, A LOT of hard work ahead of me.

If you are reading this, thank you for giving me another chance.  Thank you for entertaining the idea that I may actually be able to do this.  In my heart and mirror I truly want it gone but have been seriously challenged in getting my mind straight and focused.  This is the time and it’s all on me.  My sweat, my tears, my pain. 

Some very fabulous girlfriends of mine have mentioned more than once that I was doing so well when I was writing this blog – it allowed me to stay focused and they missed my writing – so here you go my dear fabulous friends…I am back! 🙂

Blog Soon,

PFF

P.S. Another reason for the comeback today?  Let’s just say it will be brought to your attention in some up coming posts….but Jennifer Hudson, Star Jones and Raven Symone all have a little something to do with it.

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